About a year ago I came across this girl on Youtube. She has just over 100 subscribers and uploads infrequently, so she's not well known or anything. I only found her because of similar musical interests. Most of her videos are of her singing or talking about her life or opinions.
She's around the same age as me, and when I first found her I was immensely jealous of how beautiful she was. She's also got the coolest personality and seems really creative and intelligent.
Somewhere along the line I started to get obsessed with imitating her. I stalk her social media accounts regularly and have started imitating her. I cut and dyed my hair to look like hers. I do my make up like hers. I copy the way she dresses, and I even try to talk and act like her.
It's super fucking weird and creepy but I can't help myself. I just think she's so cool and I want to be her. I'm even contemplating a cosmetic procedure on my face so I look more like her.
I guess it wouldn't be so weird if it were a famous celebrity I was imitating - people do that all the time. But she's just some random girl and she doesn't even know I exist. I have never left her a comment or messaged her and I have no desire to. I just want to steal her style and her look and be like her.
I feel like it's unhealthy to be this obsessed with someone, but it has happened to me before. I tend to latch onto other people's identities and copy them to fill some sort of hole in myself and I really don't know why. It's like I'm incapable of building my own identity, I have to steal other peoples.
Anyway, I'm hoping someone will be able to give me some advice or tell me whether this is normal or not. Am I a complete creep?
Source by identityleech
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